Every day is so different on this journey. Deployment is a new experience for me. I didn't know what to expect or how to handle it. I feel like an emotional roller coaster! Some days I feel great! I come home, make dinner and am able to sleep soundly at night without a care in the world. There are other days that I am just so down and often cry myself to sleep (if I can sleep at all). I re-read e-mails from Jonathan so many times because it makes me feel closer to him. I do all of these insane things to keep myself sane! I have to remember that so many women have gone through this before and I have so many resources and people around me for support. I also have an awesome God who I can talk to about my struggles and I know that He is in control. Although, I believe it is perfectly normal to be an emotional basket case during this time, I know that everything will work out according to God's perfect plan. He has already helped me by providing me with many things to do so that I can keep myself busy. The only thing left to do is trust.
"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." Proverbs 3: 5 & 6
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